To watch the Today Show piece about life after child loss, click here
For the past 5+ years, I’ve been an open book. I’ve shared my struggles with infertility and the sheer joy of becoming pregnant with triplets. I’ve shared the heartache that comes with losing two children and the happiness as I watch our miracle survivor achieve the impossible. So, I didn’t hesitate when the Today Show Parenting Team invited me to share our story through a video. What I didn’t realize, though, was the range of emotions that would come to the surface nearly five years after delivering our triplets.
Last week, a film crew arrived in Springfield, ready to take over our house as we went about our typical day. Lexi and Zach Read are freelancers for Today, who travel the country filming unique and inspirational stories that are made into beautiful videos. The night before they arrived, it hit me–this was going to be an emotional couple of days.
For two days, they filmed our lives. They captured me picking up Peyton at school and filmed me on the news. They filmed Ryan getting Peyton ready for ballet. And they filmed us as a family, doing things we love to do like playing games and reading books. On the outside, our family of three looks picture-perfect, but there’s so much more to our story than most people see.
For two days, we allowed cameras to film our family and showed off Parker and Abby, our two triplets who passed away. They filmed me as I went through memory boxes, choking back tears as I looked at ultra sound pictures and other momentos for the first time in years. They captured us on camera as we delivered books and gifts to our local NICU, a place that will always hold a special place in our hearts. And while we have faced plenty of heartache, it was so therapeutic getting to talk about our child who are no long here.
Words cannot express how proud I am watching my husband and daughter be interviewed. Peyton was so sweet, telling her new friends all about her brother and sister in Heaven. And Ryan, who is much more reserved than me, poured his heart out during our interview. It’s difficult to relive every minute of the worst days of our lives; to share what it’s like to hold your child as they die in your arms. But, Ryan was genuine and raw as he spoke with grace, his love for our family on display for the world to see.
Two days of video and interviews will be cut down into a few minutes. We are so honored that we get to share our story and speak about topics that are often considered “taboo”. It’s a once in a lifetime experience and we’re proud to show off how we have found life after loss. A big thank you to my friends at the Today Show Parenting Team. We can’t wait to see the finished product. And special thanks to filmmakers, Lexi and Zach–it was an honor to open up our home and lives for the cameras to capture.